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By Mary Morrell, Things my Father Taught Me
When my dad died unexpectedly, leaving me to care for my terminally ill mom, life began a slow emotional descent. At home were six sons, each at a different stage of growing up. There was a full-time job, graduate school and, as an only child, the responsibility of making my father’s final arrangements.
Grief had to wait. The priority became bringing Mom home to live out her remaining days surrounded by family. That decision meant taking a year away from graduate school and leaning heavily on the extraordinary Haven Hospice team, whose compassion made the journey possible.
Still, something inside was unraveling.
There comes a point in many difficult seasons when determination is no longer enough. We can keep putting one foot in front of the other while quietly losing ourselves along the way.
One Sunday, all the frustration, fear and exhaustion came with me to church.
“How do you expect me to handle all this?” was the silent prayer directed to God.
The answer arrived almost immediately. A tap on the shoulder revealed a tall man with an easy smile. “You should join the parish choir,” he said.
Really? That was God’s solution? One more commitment when there already weren’t enough hours in the day?
Yet grace doesn’t always arrive wrapped in the package we expect. Sometimes it comes disguised as an invitation that feels inconvenient. Sometimes the lifeboat has no haloed captain, only an ordinary person and a simple suggestion.
“You have a lovely voice,” he continued. “Let me introduce you to the choir director.”
Jerome sang bass. His wife, Pat, sang alto. Over the next three decades, they and many others became far more than fellow choir members. They became faithful companions through seasons of joy and sorrow.
The choir turned out to be much more than music. It became God’s answer.
Looking back, it is striking how often God works this way. Rarely does he remove every hardship. More often, he places people, gifts and opportunities along the path that give us strength to keep walking. A conversation. A friendship. A ministry. A creative gift waiting to be rediscovered. These become quiet expressions of his presence.
Most people will face a season when life feels too heavy to carry alone. Not everyone begins with a strong support system, but community can be cultivated. Sometimes it grows in the most unexpected places, among people united by a shared purpose and the simple joy of creating something beautiful together.
Music became that place for me, but the same grace can be found through painting, gardening, writing, dancing, baking or woodworking. Human beings were created in the image of our Creator. Whenever we create, something within us begins to heal.
Too often we convince ourselves that what we make must be extraordinary to have value. But creativity is not about perfection. It is about openness. In the act of creating, we learn to surrender – to let go of control long enough for God to meet us there. That practice of surrender gradually teaches us to release other things we cling to as well.
These days, age is slowly diminishing the singing voice that carried me through so many years. Another season of letting go has begun, accompanied by hopes of filling more pages before meeting my Maker.
Perhaps that, too, is another invitation.
The choir taught a lesson that has never faded: When life becomes overwhelming, God often provides exactly what is needed – not always by changing the circumstances, but by changing how we are able to walk through them. Looking back, the greatest gift was never simply finding a place to sing. It was discovering that God’s grace so often arrives in the form of people willing to stand beside us until the song can be sung again.
Mary Morrell is editor-in-chief of The Catholic Spirit, the Metuchen Diocesan newspaper.